MoonlightEnvy

05:14 pm

WOW its June already! My first summer class ended last week, and my new one starts tomorrow. I should be getting an A in my class, which is awesome. Tomorrow is the Bath and Body Works semi-annual sale, so I am getting up early to hit that up.

I'm working on some other stuff around the house to keep myself busy. I'm sanding and varnishing a dresser, cleaning, and just hanging out. I dunno if a summer job is in my future. I discussed it with my mom and she would rather have me take the 3rd summer class, she even already bought the books I need. That makes a fulltime job not possible, but a part time job might be possible. Nothing over 25 hours a week would give me some money and some time out of the house. I just don't want to waste my summer working.

Thursday I'm going to Indiana for Sara's 21st. This time I'm only having like 2 drinks and if I can't drive home, I'M NOT. I'm bringing Amanda with me so I don't have to drive alone.

01:23 am - weekend

So on Saturday I went to Indiana to hang out with Sara and get a little drunk. I HAD SO MUCH FUN!!!!!!! We went shopping, I got a new purse/bookbag, we drank, then went somewhere drunk, I smoked 2 cigarettes, and then somehow I made it home. CRAZY!!!!! I had a blast and I can't wait to do it again. Next time I'm not gonna try driving home so early!

Tomorrow I have a TON of stuff due for my online class, so I am gonna try and turn something in tonight so I can do what I need to do tomorrow. I have to go to Indiana to return 2 shirts, get 2 shirts I should have bought on Saturday, then make it back in time to do the rest of the stuff due tomorrow.

My summer has been good so far, so I HOPE it remains good! I'm still kind of excited for next school year though! (mostly for the shopping for new stuff) I'm really gonna enjoy the time as it is, and not thinking of the past or the future. I do know next year is gonna be off the chain!!!!

Current Mood: content

01:39 am - yeah

So I start one of my summer classes tomorrow and Im kind of excited to have something to do! I kind of wanna give myself maybe like 2 weeks of freedom and then look for a job. I will try intermedia again, and hopefully I can find something better than that. I dont wanna work like a lot, b/c I still wanna have time to work out, summer school, having fun, and relaxing but I need money to buy stuff for my suite next year. I REALLY hope my roommate is cool!!! And Amanda will be there too so it should be an awesome year! I already have such high hopes for it.

So I'm driving to IUP tomorrow to buy a book I need for my class, and to return some clothes I bought online. I hope I can maybe sell books I brought back by mistake for some extra money!! And I gotta call about my car tomorrow. My whole body hurts so im gonna pass out!

Current Mood: sore

04:33 pm - DONE

I took my last final, and now I am back in my room, hanging out for the last time. Its kind of sad, like I can't believe the year went by so damn fast!!! And to think that I almost didn't stay here!!! So I am just waiting for my mom to get here to get about half of my stuff, then waiting around some more to help get the big stuff out. I am gonna go look for a cart soon, cause it completely NUTS here!!! So many cars, I am hoping that it clears out by the time my mom gets here.

Shit, and I still have to go to the Co-op and sell my books and buy that book I need for Public Policy. I'll probably end up either getting it today, or tomorrow.

WOW its 82 degrees here, thats INSANE!!!!!! I wish it was like 70 or something so at least it would be cooler to get all my crap outta here.

I'm gonna go look for a cart or something, then move out. :(

PEACE!!!!!!

Current Mood: hot

07:54 pm - last days

I turned in my English paper, and I took my American Politics final this afternoon. I have 3 more finals left and then Spring 2007 is dunzo.

I was in the hospital on Sunday morning, and that sucked but at least I can breathe now! I sold the Civic this weekend, and I moved more crap out of my room. I cleaned, packed, and defrosted my freezer today. I'm not going to have a lot of time tomorrow to do things, so I am going take down the rest of my posers after I wake up a little more from my nap.

All the, "I can't believe there is only *insert number here* days left" is gone. I just feel kinda sad cause I will miss my room, and like just being in Indiana all summer.

Speaking of summer, I don't know what else I am going to do except for summer school. I would like a part time job to earn some money. I'm only doing part time ONLY. I don't want summer to fade away into sweatshop like labor, I want to be able to enjoy my time off.

I guess I am gonna go study for my finals, watch "Heroes", and get my free pizza!!

Current Mood: weird

12:40 am - its may WOW

I can't believe it is MAY. Holy shit, where did April go?

I am working on my English paper, as well as reading a book for my History exam tomorrow. The paper is due on Thursday. Probably not such a good idea to wait so long to get this stuff done, but the end of the semester comes by so fast. At least I have a completely class free Wednesday and Wednesday night (if I have to) to finish my final paper. I hit 5 and a half pages about a half an hour ago, but I really have to finish that book.

Today was the last day of MWF classes, and tomorrow is the last day of TR classes. WOW again. I am not really excited for the year being over, although I am excited for the nice weather of summer. I am really liking school right now, more so than ever before. I feel that I have finally adjusted to the lifestyle and become more comfortable of somewhat being on my own.

Once I get this final paper done, the rest of my finals shouldnt be too bad. I am worried about American Politics though. As long as I get 135/200 on my Philosophy final I will have an A. Biology I should be getting a B. The same with History. I hope summer school is easy!




Knut is such a cutie!!!

Current Mood: busy

08:33 pm - trying to wake up!!

So I am sitting here at home trying to wake the fuck up so I can get some shit done today. Its only like 8:30pm. My last full week of school went by SOOO FAST. I have a feeling these next 10 days are going to be gone quick. I brought more stuff home this weekend, I have NO IDEA where I am going to put all of it for 4 months.

Well, the Civic is sold. I am going to transfer the title over on Monday morning. Dj and I are splitting the money, so I'll have money for a month (LOL) and he'll have money for a few days. (LMAO)

I NEED to work on my final research writing paper, and I have to do a pedicure.

Current Mood: tired

12:26 am - bored

UGH I am SO BORED right now. I attempted to study for my politics exam on Monday, but I just can't do it. I am tired right now too, so maybe that is why I can't study. ANYWAY, I got to lay out today which was awesome. I wish I hadn't waited until 3pm to free tan, but whatever its suppose to be nice out tomorrow too!

16 days of school. :( Once I get back to school tomorrow, I gotta bust ass on my English paper as well as study for Politics! I also have to transfer my History notes to another notebook since I ran out of room.

So hopefully I will have time to tan tomorrow, either way doesn't matter, and just get some stuff done!

Current Mood: tired

12:52 am - 17 days to go

WOW, 17 days of school left. I seriously CAN'T believe it! Next week is my last full week of class. I am kind of sad for school to be over, since it went by so fast! I am really liking school right now too. I am kind of sad to leave my room too. It has been my home away from home for 2 years :(. I would have stayed again next year if there was air conditioning. With my skin and asthma, I can't deal with hot weather.

I started bringing my stuff home this weekend. Not a lot of stuff, just extra clothes, towels, and bedsheets. I still have 2 weekends before school is over to bring stuff home, although I might stay one weekend, FINALLY! (to study for finals, hang out)

I am registered for 3 summer classes, so there will be something to do most of the summer. I plan on getting a job, nothing more than 30 hours a week though. I dunno though, I have credit card bills (yuck) and stuff to buy for my suite next year. I REALLY hope my roommate is cool. If she isn't, its not like I have to share a bedroom and bathroom with her, just like a common area but whatever. I am awesome, she would be stupid not to like me.

New York was AWESOME. SO much better than last time. Tomorrow it is suppose to be 70 degrees and I am tanning ALL DAY. Its about time that we get some decent weather! I might be going to a party tomorrow night too, which would be super fun. I hope this summer doesn't suck like last summer did. I think as long as I have something to do, everything will be ok!!!

Current Mood: excited

06:50 pm

It has been awhile since I have updated. Anyway, there are 43 days until the end of this semester. I cannot believe how fast it is going! I have decided to sign up for some summer classes at IUP. One class, I will have to drive to, but the other two are online classes which I can do at home. My Mom is getting my Eclipse fixed, so I will have a car to use!

Last summer I sat around for 3 months doing nothing and it sucked so bad. So I decided that I WILL be doing something of substance this year. I am taking classes, I will work part time at least, and just make an effort to do something everyday. Life is short, make the most of it.

Tonight I have to read a book, so I plan on reading the sparknotes for it, then skimming the book until the quiz tomorrow. I also have a History exam tomorrow. I am gonna move my room around again maybe later, clean, and vaccuum my carpet. Oh and watch 'Prison Break'!!!

I have the worst cramps EVER. I am so bloated and BLAH right now. I wish it wasn't so nice out to match my mood. It feels like it is going to rain, and I hope it does. (at least it will cool down)

I'm off to watch 'the Simpsons', peace!!!!!!

Current Mood: cranky

12:20 pm - Tuesday

Tuesday is going to be my hell day. I have class from 1:15 to 4:30, then History from 5:00-8:00pm! We're watching a movie in English, probably taking notes in Biology (there is no book so I am forcing myself to go), and then 3 hours of History hell.

I gotta go finish getting ready, and forcing myself to go to English. I think I am going to try to change my schedule around because I have a feeling that 6 hours of clsss is going to be too hard.

I think I really need to change my schedule around but I like my English professor, my Biology class is only offered at one time, and I already bought the books I need for History and I have Amanda'd old notebook from the class. I NEED all these classes, so I just gotta suck it up.

I am going to use this week to get my shit together. Life isn't ment to be easy I guess. I gotta keep my eye on the prize, May 9th, the end of the semester. Although I cannot wait for summer, it is like a double edged sword. Yes it will be summer, but it is my last semester in my room, which is kind of sad to me. Plus I will be another 3 months older. I always remember the past, "2004 was soooo awesome" but in 5 years will I be like, "OMG January 2007 was the best time of my life!" I feel so old anymore and it is depressing. I know I am 21, but I still identify with being in my late teens.


My new motivational phrase is by Matisyahu,
"Sometimes the world is dark and I just can't see
With these, demons surround all around to bring me down to negativity
But I believe, yes I believe, I said I believe
I'll stand on my own two feet"

I would like to think that everything is going to work itself out the right way. :)

Current Mood: tired

02:12 am - :(

My last day of vacation was alright. I went to walmart and got Horizon Organic milk in juice box form. I am trying to gather my stuff up so I can basically just wake up tomorrow. Ughhhh. I kind of wish I had another week of break, but I hope May 9th comes quickly.

I cannot wait until I get my school money. I am definately getting a haircut, and maybe 2 other things under $100 as a present to myself. And stock up on "supplies". (deodorant, vitamins, etc) Then I am paying bills and living like I am poor. I want to have an emergency fund. I pretty much have everything I need, so there is no need for my obtuse spending. For example, at Bath and Body Works you think nothing about paying $10 for a body wash, but do a double take at walmart at a $7 one? I mean COME ON. Dove body wash is so much better than anything at Bath and Body Works.

Anyway, Wednesday shouldn't be too bad for me, and neither should Thursday or Friday. I just gotta keep my head up and listen to a lot of positive music.

Current Mood: depressed

12:15 pm - thinking

I am so excited for school for some odd reason. I guess part of it is that after this semester is summer vacation, so that is probably why. It is my last semester in my room, which is kind of sad, but honestly it is time for a change. I am spoiled and I need air conditioning and my own bathroom. I like my room but I dunno, it seems like a prison sometimes. It isn't very "Homey" either.

I really cannot wait to go shopping for school stuff this summer. I am going to go with a themed bathroom, I was thinking Playboy or tropical. Defintely a reason to have steady employment over the summer! I wish I could have worked over winter break, but oh well.

This semester shouldn't be too hard for me, I just have to go to class and not be an idiot. I have nothing earlier than an 11:45, so I think I will be good. The later classes will be the best. Amanda is going to give me her History notebook because she had the same professor so that will be awesome. I just hope I can get use to my new routine and not get homesick like a always do.

I am gonna go work out, then shower and give myself a pedicure. PEACE.

Current Mood: excited

01:56 am - I knew it!!!

You are a Social Liberal (71% permissive) and an... Economic Liberal (23% permissive) You are best described as a: Strong Democrat Link: The Politics Test on Ok Cupid Also: The OkCupid Dating Persona Test

02:07 am - i dunno

So today was fun. I am being totally sarcastic. Part of today was fun. I woke up early, like 11am, and went SHOPPING with my mothers credit card! Hahaha, it was just grocery shopping and stuff, but still I LOVE IT. I bought L'oreal Sublime Bronze, Couleur Experte, and Acne peel kit. I got some other cool stuff too.

My last few days of vacation... :( :( :( I am packing some things I will not need like new notebooks, shampoo, and my printer and taking them back to school on Sunday either before or after my mom goes to work. I still need to get some stuff like milk and water, but that is easy stuff.

I got my math book in the mail yesterday, and I am SO HAPPY it got here fast because it is hard to make up math assignments when you don't have the book. I also got 2/5 of the novels needed for my History class. I already have my Philosophy book, so I hope I don't have to buy textbooks for my other 2 classes.

My Schedule is:
Algebra M/W/F 11:45-1245pm
Philosophy M/W 4:45-6:15pm
History T 5:00-8:00pm
English T/R 3:00-4:30pm
Biology T/R 1:15-2:45pm

I am glad to only have one class on Fridays, I read on rate my professor that the professor I have for Algebra lets you leave earlier on Fridays so I should be out of Indiana by 1:30 on Fridays!! I NEED to pass Philosophy this semester. I hope it is the professor listed and not like last time when it was a crazy, non-English speaking person. I also got a good History professor so I am happy about that.

I have a lot to do this semester; applying to the college of humanities (or whatever one Political science is in), declaring my major, and my ultimate goal of getting on the Dean's List again. 2nd and 3rd goals are staying healthy and budgeting my money very well.

So later today (haha) I am going to pack up my printer, speakers, and other stuff I won't need, exercise, shower, try to get out of my house, and just chill out!!

Current Mood: contemplative

01:59 am - I hate Chase Credit Cards

One of my credit cards interest rate went up 10% since the new year began, and my new goal is to pay those motherfuckers off. I never miss a payment and that is how they reward me? FUCK THEM. But having had gone through the emotions of that made me realize that I NEED to pay off my credit card debit. The fact that I worked one month in 2006, and basically lived off of my college money and credit cards is really not good.

I am not going to buy anything on credit anymore, unless it is a fantastic deal from American Eagle ONLY, and then I must pay off the balance in full. I most definitely plan on canceling that Chase card, as well as another card after I pay it off. My debt? I don't really want to say but it is 4 figures. I want to have at least half paid off by the end of 2007, I want to be in 3 figures. I know I can do it. At least its time for my tax return!

Honestly I have enough clothes. I only probably wear like 20% of what I have. I've listed some stuff I can sell on eBay, and I have a big donation bag ready to go. I have to get this spending back in control. I have so much hair, bath, and body stuff too. I use probably 3-4 products on my hair and I have at least 3 different verisons of every product. I use salon styling products, they last longer and do have a noticeable different, but to offset that I use drugstore shampoo. (Pantene, Herbal Essences, etc)

Those damn cards were just so easy to whip out during the holidays also. I had no money and gifts to buy. They sucked me in. I'm glad I didn't have a million people to buy for, but it still sucks.

My plan is to:
1. Pay more than the minimum payment due. (Double if possible)
2. When shopping ask myself, "Do I really NEED this? Will it make a noticeable difference?" 99% of the time the answer is "NO".
3. Only buy necessities. (Face wash, deodorant, etc)

Another reason I can't wait for summer? WORK. I hate working, but it equals money. I will need to buy a lot of stuff for my suite next year, plus pay off these fucking cards. I want to be more in control by the end of this year. I have got to do this! This past month I have had to find money just to pay my bills and it is not fun.

Current Mood: contemplative

07:27 pm

So yeah, the weather changed a little bit. It is now 43 degrees outside and rainy. Blahhhh! I hope it doesn't snow at least!!!

Earlier I found 4 of the 5 books I need for my History class on eBay, whoohoo! I also found my math book too! I'm gonna list some stuff tonight just because I have wayyyyyy too much stuff. I'll probably list some clothes and some Bath and Body Works stuff I never used.

My dad is being an asshole again, and I have NOTHING to do. I guess I am going to pack some of my school stuff, and try to clean or something.

Current Mood: bored

07:08 pm - new year!! I <3 El Nino!!!!!!!!!

I made a few resolutions that I have been able to keep, yay!! I am LOVING the weather we are having, it is wonderful. It is 52 degrees at 6:52 pm on January 4th. Its crazy but I LOVE IT. I actually kind of broke one of my resolutions, but I have a good explanation. I told myself, "No more shopping at Victoria's Secret!" I have gotten probably about 7 or 8 bras in the last 3 months that were about 50% and that was way too good of a deal to pass up. Anyway, they have my favorite lounge shorts on sale, the Pink terrycloth ones. I figured that with summer coming up and them being about half off, it was a great deal. So I cut up all of my credit cards. Once I start working in the summer, those bitches should be payed off. Then I can live in peace!

I start school on Wednesday, January 17 which is kind of weird since the move in day is that Sunday. I think I will take all my crap that I won't need for 2 days on Sunday or even Saturday Night, and then go back on Tuesday night. I will go nuts if I have to sit in my room for 2 days with nothing to do. My mom said she would buy my books, so there is an impossible feat that is off my shoulders. Intermedia called me yesterday with the best shift for what I wanted to do, but the training is next week and I go back to school the week after. :( That would have been PERFECT 2 weeks ago. At least I know that when I do come home for summer, I will not have to wait long to work. I am actually kind of excited to go back to school this time. I have a great schedule, nothing earlier than 11:45am, and I have a 2 later classes which is cool too. I am so motivated this semester, which is nice. I want to try to make the Dean's List again. I NEED to pass all my classes to keep my financial aid, so there is another form of motivation right there.

I am going to go clean my turtle cage, take the dishes out of the dishwasher, clean my room up, and probably some other stuff.

Current Mood: energetic

05:54 pm - fuck you

I am so pissed off. I am just not going to give a shit anymore. Its all about ME from now on.

Current Mood: pissed off

11:10 pm - UGH!!!!!!!

So I am at home. It was good for the first few days and now its bad. I tried to get my old job back at intermediahell but looks like I can't get in. Anyway, they have training for the "you call people" area, but I would feel like a piece of shit doing that. Maybe I could just do the training then pray to whatever I believe in that I get switched over. Or do the training, quit, then live like a homeless person until I get my school money. Plus you don't make the same amount of money in this job, which is fucking stupid. You have to put more effort into it and the bonuses aren't the same. I am going to make a resume and look around for something else before I subject myself to something lower than where I started.

Well, I got my grades. The one class I could have gotten an A in but I slacked off and now I am very disappointed in myself. I still did ok I guess, no Ds or Fs, but I would have liked to have gotten that A! I am going to use this as a learning experience. Next semester I really have to bust my ass and do well. I passed Biology, and I am so happy I wasn't one of the 50 or so people out of a 100 that either got a D or F. I KNOW I can do it, and I really need to shine. I really cannot wait until that last final and just the feeling of freedom for 4 months. When I got done on Friday it was if this large weight had been lifted and I felt free. SO I expect that feeling only 4 times better at the beginning of May.

But even if I do do well, no one cares. (Except me) Not that I need praise, but I get nothing. I am the good one and I get shit on all the time. I bust my ass in this house; cleaning, cooking, doing things that need to be done, and all I get is screamed at. So I figured why be the good one anymore. My brother does horrible in school, doesn't listen, and nothing ever happens to him. I am not going to slack off at school, because that is my ticket out of here, but why do things always work out for him? I am jealous. And hurt in a way. I know I am a bitch, and I know I can be selfish, but when he does the things he does and still gets "rewarded" it is just like "whats the point?" He wrecks my dads BRAND NEW car and its like nothing happened. I broke a parking light, a tiny little light on my moms car in 2002 and I had to pay $300 of my hard earned money for it. He has paid nothing.

I need to rebuild myself up.

Current Mood: pissed off