Nov. 26th, 2006
11:21 pm - UGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Its major crunch time right now for school. There is three weeks left of the semester, two weeks of classes and one week of finals! I am so excited for break, its going be awesome.
My brother is such an asshole!!! Ugh
Back to the grind.......
Nov. 13th, 2006
And I didnt get carded :(
Nov. 3rd, 2006
01:42 pm - chemicals
I am so sick of doctors!! Some think that prescriptions full of junk chemicals is going to help, but it doesn't!!!! I am going to quit taking the medications I am on that have steriods in them. Why? Because steriods are fucking HORRIBLE for you and your body, plus there are natural treatments that aren't making pharmacuetical companies billions of dollars. I am still going to take the 2 medications I have that don't have that shit in them, but its bullshit! I feel so misinformed and pissed off. Chemicals come from chemistry, which is bad. I hate chem. I hate most chemicals. The ones that actually save lives and work are good. Not just ones that doctors prescribe so they can make money.
And all the chemicals that are being pumped into our food supply is insane! I would eat grass if I could, but it has chemicals on it too. These man made "solutions" are barely researched and will kill us all.
Its always about money!!!!!!
Oct. 29th, 2006
10:42 pm - 2 weeks
I turn 21 in 2 weeks. I'm not even excited. I'm going to have to wait a month until Mandy turns 21 so I have someone to go to the bar with LOL. I'm also too much of a cheap ass to spend money at a bar. SO it will be back to drinking at home, which is perfectly fine with me!
Our NYC trip is in 12 days!!! I am so fucking excited. I LOVE New York City and its going to be so much fun!!!!!!! We are going to H&M, Sephora, C.O. Bigelow, and just random stores and places. I want to go to the World Trade Center site because I didn't get to see it in 2003, and I want to see it before the new buildings are built. I didn't get to go to the World Trade Center in April 2001 and I just thought it would be there the next time I went. :( I have to make a list of places to go and stuff to bring, so nothing gets forgotten.
I ended up withdrawling from my Philosophy class because the professor was not replaced. Apparently on the Thursday before Fall Break, someone came into the class and stated that his "teaching" was bullshit and that he was being fired at the end of the semester. It was also thought that we might get the chair of the department to teach the remaining class time, which would have been awesome.
So I go to class Thursday praying that we got a different teacher. I spoke with some of the other people in my class and most felt that if he showed up, they would leave. He walked into the room and I was just dumbfounded. These two girls walked out, then the cute boy behind me said, "fuck this! I'll stay here another semester if I have to" and walked out. Then the professor was passing out the attendance and I realized he wasn't just there to peace out. So I got up and left. I ended up going to the library and getting a coffee and a bagel, and read my book for Humanities Literature. I couldn't fucking believe that we didn't get a new professor. I was failing because his tests were so out there, as well as his "teaching". If he did get replaced it would have been good, but there was no way in hell I was staying.
So now I have to take 14 credits next semester to keep my financial aid, but it will end up being 16 with my Biology class. Anyway, I have 3 classes now and I HAVE to start kicking ass again because I have slacked off. Now since I don't have this philosophy bullshit, I can really focus on my other classes. I am also going to see if I could possibly take something else in the same category as philosophy because I don't want to take it again. Anyway, I'll do that when I see my adviser about Spring scheduling. I am also going to do the "Pre-Law Minor" because I want to. And I already have taken 2 of the 7 classes required, so why not? 47 days until Winter Break!!!
Sorry for the novel, I just felt like writing! I think I am going to move my room around, read my book, or watch a movie since I got my computer work done. Peace!
Oct. 23rd, 2006
I am remembering great moments, like my first year of college and just thinking about the feelings, friends, and everything that went along with them. I miss it. The energy, the drive, everything. But that brings me to my other conclusion. It can't be the final time. Being exposed to christianity, something i never could identify with nor "believe" made me just question it.
Death cannot be the end of life, and that is why I believe in reincarnation. How can one life be all you get? for life to last indefinately people need to live more than once, experience those occurances and thrills again and again.
i think i'm high
Oct. 19th, 2006
09:44 am - tired
Lately I have been feeling very 'blah' everyday. I don't know why! It might just be a slump, but I KNOW I need to start kicking my own ass.
The fucking place I worked over the summer hasnt called me back, so I guess I won't be working this weekend. Whatever. I just wanted something to do, but I think what I am going to do is finish my novel for English, start another one, and work on Biology. I think that Philosophy may be a lost cause, but I decided to meet with the professor before the add/drop period and see if it is still possible for me to pass. I just don't get it, I study like I would do for any other class and its just not working!!! Withdrawling might be the best option since the professor is being fired because he sucks.
Anyway, I gotta go pack and get ready for class.
Oct. 5th, 2006
04:06 pm - Sick :(
So of course my long weekend had to be ruined by me getting sick. On the upside, I can home and get better instead of festering here for another day. I always get better in 24 hours after going home, so hopefully my weekend can be salvaged.
Since I feel like shit, I missed my classes today. I have no energy and I doubt I could pay attention because I feel like a walking virus. So I'm taking all my books home and doing some serious work this weekend. Philosophy is kicking my ass, but the professor spends an hour talking about the attendance policy and the study groups, we get a 15 minute break, and the final 15 minutes he actually talks about Philosophy. It sucks because he doesn't teach us the material. He also thinks that if we have in class group discussions, it takes away from his teaching time, a.k.a. attendance policy time. Don't get me wrong, he is a smart guy, just a bad teacher.
I should have my new car pretty soon and I am SO EXCITED for that. The excitement isn't driving (hahha, get it "driving"?) crazy, I'm not even that anxious about it. Once the car gets painted and everything, I think I will be more excited. I'm still ultra excited for New York City, which is going to be a blast.
Anyway, I gotta go pack up my dirty laundry and bounce outta here, PEACE
Sep. 25th, 2006
03:48 pm - Its officially FALL
Not much has happened in the last few weeks. I turn 21 in a month and a half, and I have put down a deposit on a new car. I have become more adjusted to school life again, and its going well.
On November 11, Amanda and I are going to New York City to do some shopping and other fun stuff. She's never been there! It is going to be so much fun. I can't wait!!! Right now we are trying to decide what we should go see, where to go, etc. We will be there for 12 hours, so there is plenty of time to do what we want to do. My goal is not to spend more than $200. I will not buy stuff that I can get here or order online. I am just so damn excited!!!
And I decided to buy a car! Whoohooo! It is an 97 Eclipse and I looooove it! I figure I can drive it for a year or two and save up some money for an Acura RSX or a Civic.
I'm gonna go get some stuff done so I can actually sleep tonight! It is SOOOOO NICE outside too!!!
Sep. 1st, 2006
01:34 am - bored
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|✓ I miss somebody right now.||× I don't watch much TV these days.||× I own lots of books.|
|✓ I wear glasses or contact lenses.||× I love to play video games.||✓ I've tried marijuana.|
|✓ I've watched porn movies.||× I have been the psycho-ex in a past relationship.||× I believe honesty is usually the best policy.|
|✓ I curse sometimes.||✓ I have changed a lot mentally over the last year.||× I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.|
Aug. 27th, 2006
12:17 am - pissed
So the summer is offically over :(
The summer wasn't that revolutionary. I wish I would have had a job longer than a month, but you can't change the past. You can only learn from it. Anyway, I'm already making plans for next year. Hahaha.
I move back to IUP later today, and I really, really don't want to go back. Last year at this time I was so excited to go back and learn. This year...I dunno. Its not that I don't want to be in school, its just I don't know what I want to do so I'm not excited about it. And living in a non air conditioned room isn't "fun" either. Also I hope the freshmen on my floor aren't insane or I might just go homicidal.
Last night we had some people over and got a little wasted. It was fun, but I am sick of people being at my house 24/7. I would rather have my mom here than party, just because my fucking brother doesn't listen to me, or even tell me when he's leaving the house. I doubt I'll be able to get him awake this morning to help me move back. I was going to have my dad help, but hes acting like a child, so I'll probably have to make two trips; one by myself and one with my brother later in the day.
I need to get my aggression out and pack the car.